Days of the Phoenix

 i feel like im dying. i have no place to live so im at a homeless shelter and everything i dont know what to do. i dont know if ill ever get vonte back but im trying to be positive about all this. its so hard though. i just want to have a family and be loved. yeah my family loves me and everything but i just feel so abandoned right now. i dont know what do to. everytime i step into the mission i get sick to my stomach. how much can a girl take. laura gets back from vacation soon and i really hope i can come and stay with her, she said i could be i dont know if she will now. this isnt how things were supposed to be man. i just dont get it. everything was supposed to be good and happy and i was going to graduate which i did and leave the group home and go live with someone i knew and everything but now i dont know whats going to happen i cant get in touch with my sister because i know she would let me stay there. what am i going to do. im so scared. im tired of crying and everything. chris had to leave the group home he was with the boys but he has somewhwere to stay. he is staying with victor and i dont know where im supposed to go from here. i just hope laura gets back from vacation soon so i can talk to her. im drownding right now.